About Me

I am a 26 year old university student and manager at a job I don't particularly like. I couldn't begin to guess how long I've been addicted to pornography and sex. No, I don't use drugs and alcohol habitually like most "addicts", but sexual addiction constitutes the same behaviors. It occupied nearly all or all of my energy. The fact that I am still in school at 26 is a testament to that fact. The fact that my working career has not gone as far as it should with my potential is a testament to that fact. I have had broken relationship after broken relationship – and now the greatest woman I have ever met cannot decide whether or not she wants to be with me anymore.

I sleep alone every night. I wonder if my life will ever return to some normalcy. I wonder if she will ever come back to me with an open heart and offer me another chance at the life I should have had. In some ways, I think sexual addiction is the worst addiction to bring into a relationship. Of course we will want to hide it because our actions are so shameful. We objectify our partners and neglect them as real human beings who we hurt on the deepest level with our actions.